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Guys.....

2012-01-30T13:37:00.001+08:00

I'VE COMPLETED 31 DAYS OF BEING A VEGAN.

Baby Q's First Day in Punggol Home

2012-01-25T16:04:00.005+08:00

And its back to being Baby Q's nanny's assistant. She stepped into the house and said, "Who's house is this?" in perfect Malay. Told her it was Momok's house so she'll behave. Speaking of her speaking in Malay, I'm very pleased that she converse well in Malay. I just hope she doesn't turn out like those people who mati-mati don't wanna admit that they're Malay and be all "Oh no, my Malay sucks!!!! I keep failing it, it's my worse subjectzxZCzxCZ!!!one!!!1!!!"

Just shut up.

Anyway, pictures of her.

Took a cab home and she was crying her heart out, screaming "I WANT TO TAKE A BUS! BRING ME TO A BUS!". I don't think she was being modest. Just saying!

Two days ago, baby cousins slept over! In the morning, while waiting for dad to come home with the car, I took the liberty to make them up showing off my amateur make-up skills. And by amateur, I mean I suck. TAKE A LOOK!

Drove to Jalan Kayu for lunch. Ahhh the perks of living near the expressway. 5 minutes drive and we reached! But honestly, I didn't get the hype over Jalan Kayu. I mean their food is nice, but not FANTASTIC. But I finally found out that I've been scammed into eating at the wrong place. While idiots are eating at the "popular" restaurant next to the car park, I found out that the real jem was actually a 3minute-walk away from it. Had supper there last week and I swear, their roti prata is THE best. I never eat more than one prata but at that place, I could have gone for 4. Maybe 5. So now you know guys. You're welcome.

Please excuse that face.

Mum's order. CAN YOU SEE HOW RED IS IT?!?!?!?!? FOOD DYE OVERLOAD! Luckily they were really nice about it and didn't charge us for it. Seriously..........I think my mum's shit came out red or something.

To be nice, I have to say that their thosais are delicious. I MUST order their paper thosai! I just wish people would stop staring at me,every single time the waiter brings out the thosai. Sighhhhhh fatso behaviour.

HOW CAN SOMETHING SO SIMPLE BE SO DELICIOUS?????

2012-01-19T12:21:00.000+08:00

REBLOG IF...

2012-01-19T11:15:00.002+08:00

Reblog if you do or have actually cried because of your weight or the way you look.

I was reading Heeqmah's blog when I saw this. She's lucky she's never done that because as a kid, I could never find the strength in me to shun bullies away. And by bullies, I don't mean 10year olds calling me names. Even adults can be bullies, you know. They can be the biggest bullies in fact.

But like Heeqmah, my parents never gave me any trouble or worried about the way I look when I was all chubby and slightly deformed (I believe I was. Maybe still am.) It's actually pretty funny, no make that HILARIOUS, that I'm actually getting more shit from my mum about the way I look right now. But I shall not dwell on that because what else can you expect from an ex-pageant queen.

Looking back, kids didn't really gave me THAT much trouble for being overweight actually. It wasn't like I was being called fat or obese everyday. Maybe once in a while they'll start making rude comments. And when they do, boy did it hurt. Which is why I reblogged that. Because I remember crying myself to sleep, being so disgusted about the way I look. I hate all of my stomach rolls, love handles and ugly face. I was REALLY REALLY insecure but I didn't let anyone know. Because I like to believe that I'm strong.

But it didn't erase the fact that I desperately wanted to lose weight. I remember being my heaviest at 56kg (I was only 1.5m so that's pretty heavy) when I was 12. Everyone around me was so skinny and they all had tiny waists. That's when I decided that it was time for a change.

I think people assumed that I lost weight suddenly (unhealthily or whatever mental diseases they like to think I have). It was a gradual thing. I only lost 3kg in my first year but I did gain 5-6cm during the same period. I have to thank my period for that because I starting shedding weight easily after becoming fertile.

I was 50kg when I was 15. A little chubby. I still had to buy a size M for my green uniform but it didn't matter because I ended up discarding it. It was snug at the waist so I put on my size 40 uniform and I was drowning in them. It definitely gave people the illusion that I lost a lot more weight and that's kinda the purpose actually.

Suddenly when I turned 16, I was down to 45kg. People thought it wasn't normal but I didn't care. It wasn't like I was gonna break into two or something. I could still play tennis every week, PE twice a week, netball everyday. I was still okay.

I don't remember how it happened but throughout the two years in JC, I was so unhappy that I gained 3 kg. I know deep down, it wasn't an unhealthy weight gain or anything because I was so active in sports. I ran a total of 12km per week for tennis and PE, so I gotta be the at least fit. But I did started counting my calories, eating laxatives, and throwing up. It was pretty crazy actually. But I really didn't like being so close to 50kg because I remember how I was like when I was 50kg in 2007. Pretty ugly.

When I got my first office job, it got worse. I was stuck in front of a computer the whole day. There was NOTHING remotely physical I could do. I couldn't burn my calories anymore. So what I did was to have a 1000kcal-limit and it worked very well. I was friggin 40kg at one point. The last time I was forty was when I was 10! And to be that at 18, was an achievement in my eyes. I still continued with the laxatives and calorie-counting. No throwing up anymore for the next one year.

Now, I'm slightly over forty but am still very much unhappy with the way I am now. I don't think I'll ever find an end to this madness. I tried once. And then I got scared when I gained 2 effing kg and starting throwing up again. It's actually pretty scary if you think about it. There's no end. I don't think there is. But the crazy thing is that, I'm actually okay with it.

I went to some doctors and they said I am not severely underweight. I can still do things other people can. It's just that I'm more insecure about the way I am than some people. But I'd like to think that it's a girls' thing. To be insecure. I think it's pretty funny that I'm actually okay with having LSE and not okay with my body. I know it should be the other way round but I can't help it. As long as I'm not hurting anybody but myself, I'm good. That's just the way it is.

Moving Day

2012-01-14T21:34:00.002+08:00

The state of my bedroom in Pasir Ris 1 hour before the movers came (I must add that they were rather hot.) and took everything I own:

So I'll be living in Punggol for the next 3-4 months before our new house is ready. I really don't know what to think of Punggol actually. I mean, all I know is newlyweds LOVE to flock here and I think I can see why. It's a nice place, really. Quite clean and everything looks brand new.

BUT ITZ NO PASIR RIS :'(

I honestly do not mind living in PR for the rest of my life but until my parents' house is ready, I guess I'm stuck here. Meanwhile, I'll show you my new temporary room.

After the unpacking's done :

Tomorrow, I'm planning to head out to Pasir Ris at 730am just to say my final goodbyes to the neighbours and err...the trees I guess. But Plan B is to rent a bike and roam around Punggol and see what it has to offer.

GOODNIGHT

Day 14

2012-01-11T21:50:00.003+08:00

Woke up today thinking, "Omg. I haven't eaten Ya Kun in two weeks!" and immediately I texted my cousin for a quick lunchdate at Tampz/WS.

AND OMG I HAD TO GO SHOPPING FOR CLOTHES COS I FOOLISHLY PACKED ALL MY CLOTHES INTO BOXES AND SEALED THEM. What the hell am I suppose to wear for another 4 days?!?!?!?!? And of all the things I could buy, I bought a goddamn skirt. The hell. At least with a dress, I'm fully clothed. WHAT IS A SKIRT SUPPOSE TO COVER? DAMMIT.

Lunchdate soon turned into a tuition session. Practically sat with her for three hours, patiently watching her do her Chemistry, History and Malay. But to be honest, we both sucked at Imbuhan so we gave her latihans a miss.

Her baby brother came and did his Amaths and I suddenly miss school damn badly. I too want to be doing some homework. I was so desperate I told A to give me her Chemistry worksheets and I'll do it for her. Obviously, she had the sense to say no. Damn it. Can't wait for another 6 more months till school starts.

Even though they're turning 17 and 15, I will forever consider them as my little babies. Can't believe the youngest is already wearing long pants in school!!!!!! Am I getting old or what?

Anyway, took out my blue strand since the lady did an extremely poor job at it. She obviously didn't like me very much cos I was fighting with her over Rs 20 (roughly about 50cents). But hey, I'm that type of girl who wouldn't pay more than $20 for a piece of clothing. So if someone tries to cheat me 50cents, better pray for safety that's all I'm saying.

See. It's screwed up!!!!!!

13 Days

2012-01-10T18:59:00.002+08:00

Just came home from the Motherland last night! It was truly an exhausting trip. I think I need a holiday from this holiday. But this is probably the best India trip I've had. Almost 20 years being Indian, and I've never seen more than Delhi and Agra. But wow, within 12 days I got to see Manali, 2 different parts of Punjab, the usual Agra/Delhi and even the India-Pakistan border (I was literally an inch away from Pakistan!!!!)

Had many firsts on the this trip. First time spending a New Year in a foreign land. First time riding a hill horse towards the Rhutang (I sincerely have no idea how it's spelled.). First time recieving a rose from a man (#foreveralonenomore!). First time bhangra dancing and crumping in a pretentious club. First time riding a tractor. First time drinking Buffalo milk. Many firsts. But I think one of the firsts that I'm more proud of is that I didn't eat any meat (besides fish meat of course) throughout the whole trip. And I intend to keep it that way. For at least 30 days. So this is the 13th day being a pescetarian.

17 days to go!

budding photographer, totally

2011-12-28T09:13:00.000+08:00

MOTHERLAND, I IZ COMING FOR YOU!

Boxing Day: A Day for Boxes

2011-12-26T15:56:00.003+08:00

I have no idea what Boxing Day is until yesterday when someone said it was the equivalent of America's Black Friday. Nice. And over here, all we got is the Great Singapore Sale.

Getting ready to go to R's party in a bit but before that, gotta share what I've been up to since November.

Finally passed my practical test. All I gotta say is, the traffic policeman was a SAINT. I wish all my friends would get him for their future PTs so everyone can drive! Think of all the amazing road trips omg. But for now, I'm working on my father to get me a car. Which makes me sound like a spoiled brat, I know. However, please bear in mind that my dad's car is a manual. While I do have a manual license, I find driving J's and N's cars (autos) MUCH more enjoyable. Someone said this,

"Driving an automatic makes me feel like a superstar, driving a stick makes me feel like a truck driver."

Couldn't agree more.

I am now, a breakfast kinda girl. 1 year ago, if someone suggests a breakfast meeting I'd just mentally beat the crap out of them. But things have changed and I'm now loving every single minute of the AM! More importantly, some of you might know this already, BUT I LOVE YA KUN. You can see my post about it 4 months ago (don't worry, it's just 2 posts below this) and my feelings towards Kaya Peanut Toast and Teh Peng Siew Dai (sp?) have not changed. If I ever become famous, I'll shamelessly approach Ah Kun's children and asked them to sponsor me toast every morning (because $4.20 every morning will hurt my wallet realistically speaking).

I've tried LJS breakfast for the first time with A and N and it's okay I guess. Maybe because I was counting calories so I opted for something barely there which is toast bread and butter over their delicious-looking turkey bacon toasts. Counting calories is a tough job, man.

I've been trying to be a domestic goddess by cooking for the family more often. Nothing fancy, just pasta, pasta and more pasta. And I don't even make my own pasta LOL. But I'm gonna venture into Malay dishes in 2012! I gotta familiarise myself with lengkuas, serai and sambal belacan. Indian cooking will forever be done by my mum so I'm not gonna learn that till I'm marrying an Indian man (LOL AT THE THOUGHT OF ME MARRYING A MAN).

Baked a cake for Baby S's first birthday! Theme was COLOURS and I did what I could. Her mummy said it was nice but I honestly think she was just being polite because looking back, I accidentally halved the amount of flour required so I don't even know how THAT tastes like. I hope the guests are still alive.

Going to India Round II this Thursday. We won't be sticking to New Dehli like we always do. The plan is to get in a car as soon as the plane lands at I.G Airport for FIFTEEN hours to Manali (not Manila, that is a different city which can be found in Singapore). Then to Punjab where we're gonna be fat arses stuffing ourselves with Punjabi food (loads of Ghee, BRING IT ON) and then a one-day trip to Agra to see my wedding venue (LOL AGAIN AT THE MENTION OF MY MARRIAGE), the Taj Mahal, and then N.Delhi to visit my family.

Meanwhile, I need to iron my party outfit okbye.

Christmas Eve

2011-12-24T23:52:00.004+08:00

Tried the dark, vampey look just now and I gotta say, I'm not hatin' on it. Maybe I'll replicate this look for Monday's party. Maybe. If I want to give R's mum a heart attack.

Blogger tells me that my last post was made on Jul 17. I honestly didn't think it was THAT long. But it's time for a fresh start so I figured, why not start posting today?

Dotz Will Connect

2011-07-17T20:17:00.006+08:00

Had a very good Sunday today! I was suppose to go to work but while I was on my bed contemplating which territory I should terrorise today, Sharifah texted me for a meet-up and 30 mins later, we were having toast and teh peng for breakfast.

Omg, before I continue...

I LOVE TOASTED BREAD SO MUCH.

Honestly, I was never a breakfast person. I used to wake up everyday at noon and skip breakfast, thinking that I would lose weight that way BUT NO. I mean, I am not trying to lose weight NOW or anything but having breakfast is so important to one's health. Ok it also depends on what you eat for breakfast BUT HOW HARMLESS IS TOAST? Very,very harmless okay. Not to mention it's toasted BROWN bread hor.

Okay la, I am a bit guilty for saying this but I spam peanut and kaya (and sometimes I'll do butter with CONDENSED MILK) on my bread. BUT IT'S SO DELICIOUS, WHY HASN'T ANYONE INTRODUCE ME TO TOASTED BREAD BEFORE?

Speaking of breakfast, I am a changed person. Like I said, I was not a morning person. BUT NOW I TOTALLY AM. And to make it extra special, I love having my breakfast alone. It is truly ze best feeling in the world. I know that some people have still not master the art of eating alone. Totally understandable, with one's nature of needing people to feel safe or simply being LSE. Sometimes it's a pity because honestly, being a loner during breakfast is just so awesome. Especially when it's at 7:36am (must be specific one hor), and it's so quiet that you can have the luxury of mentally preparing your day and just people watch. Ok la, most of the time it's not fun to people-watch because the people that you are watching are usually office aunties and uncles with sweatpitts and looking all-tired after squeezing into trains with four thousand other people...

But that's not the point. The point is, having breakfast alone is awesome. And people should really try it. End of story.

So anyway, met Sharifah for Ya Kun (can't believe I had EIGHT slices of toast.) and then her classes got cancelled so I decided to show her my Pasir Ris.

Brought her to a God damn fish farm. HAHAHAHAHA

And then we saw Fish Spa and she hasn't try it before so WE DID IT!

It was seriously very traumatic, even for me. BECAUSE I SWEAR, THOSE FISHES WERE PIRANHAS. They were HUGE and were crowding before us and I sincerely thought that they were going to bite my feet off if I even dared to put them inside the pond.

Would you put your feet into this?

Tried to be a Bollywood heroine and put my feet into the pond, only to lift them up after three seconds because they were just CHEWING MY LEGS OFF.

Fine, they weren't chewing them off. But there were only 300 fishes and only a pair of feet so it seriously felt like it.

Sharifah being a pussyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

After 20 mins, we finally put our feet in and it was a torture for the first 30 seconds. I don't know why it felt so weird this time because I generally have a very good experience at fish spas.....like I said, they were secretly piranhas.

A picture of my feet- OH RIGHT YOU CAN'T SEE THEM BECAUSE THE FISHES WERE VICIOUS.

Sharifah's feet looked good though. Maybe cause hers were cleaner than mine.

Feeling good after a while. BRING ON THEM FISHES.

A third pair of feet joined us. They belonged to a rather friendly man who was quite brave actually. Ok no la, he wasn't macho at all because he waited till we went first then he went for it lor.

#numberoneannoyingface

Feet felt absolutely soft after that. I mean,what else would you expect after being attacked by a country of them.... Would I do it again? Yes. Sharifah and I have decided to go for fish spas every fortnight in pursuit of baby-bottom feet. Seriously the feeling of having soft-ass feet is so awesome. BUT I'M NOT GOING BACK TO THAT PLACE AGAIN UNTIL THEY TAME THEIR FISHES.

Standing on top of Sharifah's favourite bridge. God knows why she has a favourite bridge....

OMG THERE'S SO MUCH TO DO TONIGHT SO GOODBYE!

Ok not really, I just want to enjoy the rest of my night feeling my velvety feet. HEHE.

FOREVER 18

2011-07-16T22:11:00.002+08:00

Flown fresh from New York, chey chey. While this made my day, I'm still too depressed to blog. I don't think anyone can understand how shattered I was when Snape died. Fine, loads of people died but his love for Lily Potter is just so....remarkable to me, I simply must give him extra credit for it. I hate it when I'm starting to like a character and then he ends up dying. Kinda like my crushes. HE HE HE

A picture of me and Faith before I leave. In case you need a reminder on how I look like.

BE RIGHT BACK...

2011-07-15T23:28:00.001+08:00

Mourning that death of Snape (who knew that man could be such a sweetheart) so give me a few days to sink back into reality.

SHOULD I GET THIS DRESS?!??!?!?

2011-07-10T17:51:00.002+08:00

I've never worn a long dress before ~~because I'm a slut like that~~ since I thought I'd look pregnant in it but surprisingly this one's rather fitting. SO HOW.

Meanwhile, visit Shuyin at Victoria Jomo at Haji Lane! I super love their clothes there and they're quite reasonably priced. You know, for a store along Haji Lane. Tried on at least 10 different pieces of clothing and I love them all! Too bad my wallet disagrees with me :(( But still, go check the store out and remember to say hi to Shuyin :)

Once I get my first stable pay,

2011-07-09T15:53:00.002+08:00

I WILL BE A BLONDYYY.

Get out of the RACE

2011-07-08T21:19:00.002+08:00

Within four days, so much decisions have been made it's like I wasn't even given the time to just stop and breathe. Following my departure from HongKong, I've since sunk into depression #2 (#1 was when I got a B for PW HA-HA).

If you were to ask me a question, 48 hours ago,on my well-being, I would say JUST GODDAMN KILL ME. LIKE GIVE ME CANCER OR KNOCK ME DOWN WITH A FIFTY-FOOT TRUCK JUST END MY LIFE PLEASE because I secretly do not have the balls to jump down a building. But now, I feel fine. I don't know whether I'm still numb from that numbing agent being injected through my neck ( true story. I went to SGH to get this thing on my neck checked and I honestly could have broken my neck and not know it. ITS SUPER NUMBINGGGG) BUT I FEEL OKAY. Not particularly fantastic but at least not as suicidal as I was 2 days ago. Granted, this was not what I was imagining my life to be but I'll make sure that in 10 years' time, THIS EPISODE WILL NOT MATTER. Mark my words.

Anyway, I've been spending lots of time with my friends who have been so amazingly understanding. Haven't been going to work for a week. Instead, we took sneaky trips to Delifrance, Bugis Street and Ya Kun (and I worked as a vintage shopkeeper at Haji Lane for a few hours. It was awesome). But like I said, in 10 years' time THIS WILL NOT MATTER.

I'm still on a quest to find the best cheesecake because this cheesecake sucks. So far Delifrance's cheesecake is still my number uno cheesecake in Singapore.

You know when you're depressed and sick of life, you either go crazy and stop eating or you go crazy and eat a horse? Today I had Mcdonalds' breakfast, Cheesecake, Chicken Rice, Nasi Ayam Penyet, Marble Cheesecake, Famous Amos cookies anddddddd green tea. NEED TO EAT MORE.

MIDD

2011-07-06T00:31:00.005+08:00

I hate it when I'm pissed off at one thing, and then all this bottled rage just escapes itself all of the sudden and then I'm mad at the most silly thing on Earth. And facebooking for the past hour has got me so worked up, I can't fall asleep because I am just so angry at so many people it's like

WHY ARE PEOPLE SO STUPID?

You'd think having excellent Alevel grades or a good educational background (NUS, at the very least) would somehow knock some senses into some people's thick heads BUT NOPE. Stupid people, they're everywhere. EVERY FUCKING WHERE.

Honestly, I'm not the smartest kid around. But at least I'm honest. Or try to be most of the time. And I finally realised honesty makes the world go round. Not stupid grades, not university placings, not wealth but honesty. SO WHY CAN'T THE WORLD JUST BE AN HONEST PLACE, I DON'T UNDERSTAND.

Gee. Maybe I'm stupid too.

OOYEAH

2011-06-30T19:38:00.003+08:00

Firstly, a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my father who has one more year to go before he reaches his fifties. Hang in there, pops.

Birthdays at my house are usually quite pathetic. There's one person cutting the cake, one person taking the photo and there's only one more person to cheer on as the birthday dude cuts the cake. That's life of a family of three people. But I can't complain though. I had discussed this with Shuyin, who is also from a family of three, and we both agree that it's indeed a little lousy when our families go out for dinners. It's like, we don't even fill out two tables. It might as well be a date between two people and a third wheel strolling along with them (most of the time, this third wheel comes in the form of ME).

But still, there are obviously pros and cons to having a small family. People ask me whether I get bored or whether I feel lonely. Truth is, I've grown up as a pretty lonely kid for the most part of my life. Sailing with my parents for the first 7 years of my life got me used to the idea of having zero friends. Friends starting coming in when I was about 10 (?) and I soon learn to forget the meaning of the word "lonely". While it gets quiet at home, I appreciate it. In fact, I love it :)

Anyway, I don't know why the sudden post about being in a small family. The thing is, I promised that I'll blog before I leave Singapore for a short little trip. So here I am. Meanwhile, here's what Heeqmah got me from her London trip,

Well, some of what she got me ;)

Anyway, I hope tomorrow's trip would be a good one because I really need to get out of this stupid country who clearly does not want me (boohoo). Ok who am I kidding, with Rachael by my side, it's going to be a blast! Provided that woman comes and see me there, sekali she's flying to Singapore tomorrow or something -_-

Goodbye, Sg!

KAMPUNG

2011-06-27T20:38:00.011+08:00

So I went for a family chalet at Changi and I was honestly so shocked to discover how big it was! I mean, I've been to chalets and they're usually those cramped, one-bedroom (two bedrooms TOPS) at Pasir Ris or East Coast but I was simply amazed at the Fairy Point Chalet that Jaja got for us.

We had our very own gate too! However, it sucked because at 2am, a group of drunk bastards came and caused some trouble at our chalet. They thought that my uncle stole their beer (HAHAHA WTF). It was so dramatic! It was, my uncle and his son against this group of drunkard assholes and thank god my uncle had the balls to bring out a knife. Obviously, when they saw the knife some of them started apologising and getting the fuck out of our chalet. Honestly, I do not see the point of drinking if you can't hold it. Even if you can, I still do not see it. Wanna act all so mature and drink, in the end see one pathetic knife and you guys start shitting in your pants. Lousy.

Anyway, the infamous entrance where the fight started and ended within 2 minutes:

The second floor!

Our second-floor balcony with this view:

One thing I cannot tank about chalets is how FRIGGIN NASTY THEIR TOILETS ARE. Even if you pay $10 for one night or $1000, the toilets will forever be dirty. And we had like three toilets. NOT ONE SINGLE SHIT WAS CLEAN OMYGOD. Speaking of shit, one of my uncles managed to clog to toilet with his shit so we were down to two by the second night. #TMI

Dad setting the barbecue in his office attire.

My camera pouch which I got from Phuket for 100Baht. I honestly think I paid too much for it but Phuket's shopping is just too good to miss! I wanna go Phuket again so badlyyyyy

Tasha's phone which was dropped and obviously is cracked.

MUMMY

At the end of the first night, we sat down to watch a 1980s tape recording of the older generation having their chalet (at Changi, THE EXACT SAME SPOT THAT WE WERE HAVING!) when they were younger. It was so cool, I saw my mum playing Rounders, I saw my cousins in diapers, I saw my grandaunts in their long gowns taking care of their babies, I saw how everybody dressed in the 80s (it was seriously, not pretty). It was nice, kinda like watching an old drama but the cast is being replaced by your loved ones. I wanted to record our chalet so that in 30 years' time, we would all gather together and watch the video, just like what we're doing. But nyeh, too much effort.

Didn't sleep over since I had driving in the morning and it's so difficult to travel to Ubi from the chalet. So after my driving, met Tasha and Bu Nana for lunch before taking 29 to Changi. Missed our stop and we ended up at Changi Village where we found this shop

Couldn't resist the chocolate lava ice cream so we bought a cup and share. My God, it tasted like heaven.

Going to order a cake for Dad's belated birthday before I leave this Friday. I hope Belgium chocolate cake tastes good :/ But if it tastes anything like the lava ice cream I had, then I have absolutely nothing to worry about. YUMMZ

So we went back to the chalet and then the adults wanted finger food so we drove back to Changi Village for goreng pisangs. Had to wait for 30 mins so we sat down for some cold desserts.

God knows how much I've been craving for Sugar Cane drink. Everytime I'm working and doing my rounds around coffeeshops, I always feel like sitting down and drinking one big giant cup of sugar cane to just shut down the heat in my body (why is Singapore so damn hot?). But then again, when you're in the West, you'll never want to prolong your stay there. The West is just...bizarre. It's like Malaysia, honestly. You guys should try and explore the West someday. Just remember to bring some pepper spray. JUST IN CASE.

The chalet was a good one, although I wished I had stayed a little longer but I had work/driving. Food was good, I was never hungry during my stay there. Gained a kg there but managed to lose them due to food poisoning (HAHAHAHA). So it's all good. Life's good. Could be better, but I'm good.

And to end it off, here's a picture of my sexy Sharifah!

Don't ever try unknown restaurants at Kampong Glam

2011-06-21T17:02:00.002+08:00

Gonna be away for a few days! Excited about this chalet since it's not everyday we see our extended family. As close as we think we are, we only see each other twice a year. Once for Hari Raya, and the other one's usually on a wedding day or funeral. Hahaha!

But I will leave some photos before I go so you can stare at my friends' pretty faces and pick one to marry (they're all singles. Including myself but I don't date people who read my blog sorry :/)

Gonna be a busy busy week this week. Got to go Woodlands/Jurong/theUnknown and most importantly SGH for an ultrasound/scan. I'm praying it's a girl. HAHAHAHA

Alrighty, like I've promised, the photos of my beautiful sistaz:

RACHAEL HO, WHEN ARE YOU COMING BACKKKKKKK :'(

FAST FORWARD

2011-06-16T22:09:00.002+08:00

Finally ending my hiatus with a few pictures of what you guys have missed in May-June 2011.

I will definitely be back, blogging full-time now because I sort of miss the feeling of satisfaction when I click on "Publish Post". However, today's entry will be short and sweet. Firstly because I'm tired and I need to complete a report and send it by 12am before I can finally enjoy my Friday with my SISTAZZZZZZ. Secondly, I do not want to overpower you with my awesomeness, thanks.

1) Mango Sticky Rice is the best dessert ever. Heck, I'll eat it for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I find it really sad that it's a friggin unpopular dish in Singapore. The only place that I can think of which sells this is Bali Thai. And it's not even that nice.

2) I quit my job at my father's company. I think things will be pretty awkward if I ever step into the office. But I am forever grateful for the opportunity given to me to work there. Simply because, everyone treats me well there and also due to the valuable experience I've learnt. But sadly, I just had to terminate my contract early because I was just mentally EXHAUSTED there. Still grateful for it though!

3) Went to Phuket with my parents and their friends. Had many FIRSTS there. First time eating a banana pancake. First time para sailing. First time entering a cabaret (which was ran by ladyboys, if you know what I mean). Can't believe I paid about SGD8 for a blurry picture (below). But still, it was friggin fantastic. Phuket is definitely one of the places that I'd like to visit again.

4) Finally starting on my driving lessons after passing my BTT. Was freaking out the weekend before my test because the passing score was anything above 44 over 50. Which is stupid if you really think about it. When I was in JC, the passing score was anything over 40 upon ONE HUNDRED. Then again, maybe it's to sieve out the experts from the idiots. A huge-ass thank you to Nadia for accompanying me to Ubi and waiting for almost an hour while I took my e-trial and actual BTT. Thought I was gonna to fail actually. Suffered a huge migraine on that day, could not even see a shit in my right eye. But that girl believed in me and thank God, I manged to pass BTT. Perfect score somemore, mind you. HAHAHAHA Sorry, couldn't help boasting because the last time I had a perfect score in anything was five years ago. So yes. I'm gonna own the road one day!

5) Met Shuyin and I am so pleased because I sincerely thought she's ignoring me because I'm not cool enough for her or something. HAHAHAHA But I'm glad we did meet up, ate what we ate, discussed whatever that was discussed ;) SEE YA TMR MY JUSTIN BIEBER SISTAL!

More to come

2011-05-09T19:55:00.002+08:00

Proud of Aljunied residents for finally speaking up! I am deeply saddened by comments made on Twitter and Facebook about their victory though. Contrary to popular beliefs, this does not weaken the PAP but in fact, strengthens it. PAP lacks the soul needed while other parties lack the experience. By adding the Workers' Party (they should be respectably called Workers' Party and not simply OPPOSITION) in, this definitely humbles the PAP and gives the Workers' Party the chance to show how credible they can be. We are going to have the best of both worlds people. We are going to have two stronger parties emerging in the years to come. We are going to be alright, if not better. So please shut up about having alternative voices in the parliament because when you recite your pledge in primary school, do not forget that it says "...to build a DEMOCRATIC society..". Anyway, a little competition is always healthy right?

SISTERS I SWEAR

2011-05-06T21:38:00.001+08:00

DERP DERP

2011-05-02T21:19:00.004+08:00

Today was a good day! I made so many decisions and I'm really pleased with myself for being so wise, I really am. So firstly, my aunt got this clothes rack for me because my cupboard is SO PACKED that all the clothes are wrinkly even though they were ironed before. So my aunt got me this rack so I can place all my work clothes here.

It is quite embarrassing because the rack is in the DINING ROOM but nobody uses the dining room. Anyway, I'm gonna make some space in my room by removing the study table in my bedroom since I don't need to study anymore. HAHAHA.

Met Nadia for lunch at Compass Point WHICH IS SO DIFFICULT TO LOCATE I ENDED UP IN HOUGANG WHAT THE HELL. But I'm so glad I preserved because meeting that girl made me so relieved. So many things to discuss, so little time. But one thing's for sure, I'm so glad I'm not alone. So YAY FOR NADIA!

Anyway, pictures of babies for I go missing for a another four days!

I want another niece. COUSINS, PLEASE MAKE SOMETHING HAPPEN.

2011-05-01T20:13:00.002+08:00

We can have our cake and eat it too.

2011-05-01T19:56:00.005+08:00

Just got back from Sharifah's place for a baking session/birthday celebration for her sister! We made a Double Rainbow cake. Rainbow on the inside, and on the outside! Pictures are below.

First time trying the rainbow cake. I am happy with the results but there were two major problems.

1)We used the wrong sugar. We used the normal sugar which made the cake slightly heavier but still edible, nonetheless.
2)Should have put more salt into the icing as it was a little too sweet.

BUT I LOVE THE COLOURS OMG. Would have eaten more of the cake but takut kencing manis ah. HAHAHAHA

Anyway I would like to complain about Burger King's new "burgers for females" or whatever they call them. So here are the burgers that they advertised:

This is what I got (after splitting them).

BURGER KING, WHY YOU CHEAT MY FEELINGS?!!?!!

Ok pictures.

@justinbieber

2011-04-24T15:02:00.003+08:00

FINALLY I WANTED TO BLOG ABOUT MY AWESOME FRIDAY FOR SO LONG BUT THIS WEEKEND IS SO PACKED I JUST WANT TO BEG THE GOVERNMENT FOR ANOTHER PUBLIC HOLIDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

So anyway, Friday was awesome because WE FINALLY CAUGHT JUSTIN BIEBER'S NEVER SAY NEVER!!!!!!!!!!

My God, it was such a traumatic experience at first. Ok so if you guys are on Twitter, you would have probably knew how irritating our tweets were the night before Justin's concert in Singapore. BECAUSE I HONESTLY COULD NOT BELIEVE THAT I WAS MISSING HIS CONCERT BECAUSE OF HOW EXPENSIVE HIS TICKETS WERE. I mean, I HAD the money but throwing away $300 for one night's worth of thrill was a little bit extreme to me.

BUT AFTER WATCHING NEVER SAY NEVER, I FELT SO STUPID OMGAWDDDDDDDDDD.

Trust me, that boy is worth every penny. EVERY. SINGLE. DAMN. PENNY.

And to make matters worst, they were giving out 20-40 tickets away at the Indoor Stadium. Omg, till this day, this news breaks my heart. SHATTERED OKAY.

But honestly, Friday was so much more enjoyable because of the hardship we went through.

Firstly, we went to Plaza Sing to meet up and catch up with Helena aka HOTTESTBABEALIVE before catching Justin's movie at Cathay nearby.

By the way, if you guys want VS hair curlers or straighteners please go to Plaza Sing's basement and catch HOTTESTBABEALIVE there.

So anyway, it was 4:30pm and the movie starts at 5pm BUT SOME STUPID IDIOT AT CATHAY DECIDED THAT NO ONE CAN BOOK NEVER SAY NEVER TICKETS ONLINE so we were already freaking out at the possibility of failure to obtain his tickets.

And at first I was a little puzzled because the 5pm movie was at the Cathay near Orchard Road there and we were at Plaza Sing so I thought maybe there was a shortcut or something but NOOOOOOOOOO. WE GOT THE WRONG CINEMA.

So we immediately RAN out of Plaza Sing and hopped on the first train to Somerset station to catch the 5pm movie and when we were there, we found out that the movie was...................

SOLD FREAKING OUT.

I swear, no one can understand the disappointment in our hearts really. WE ALREADY MISSED HIS CONCERT THEN WE'RE ALREADY GOING TO MISS HIS MOVIE AND THERE WERE NO OTHER DAYS TO WATCH NEVER SAY NEVER BECAUSE WE'RE WORKING 9-5 JOBS AND THERE IS NO TIME.

And Calvina sneakily tried to deter us from watching Never Say Never by suggesting Limitless HAHAHAHAHA But she's really nice about it! Even though she's not a fan, she actually went to check GV's and Eng Wah's cinemas and that's when we found out there was a 6pm show at Marina's GV so once again, we DASHED out of that god damn place and took a bus to Marina.

Once we reached Marina, we (I swear this is true) SPRINTED to Golden Village and it was the longest sprint of my life, honestly. GV was like nowhere to be seen but we just kept on running and running and FINALLY WE SAW GOLDEN VILLAGE and I friggin ran to the counter and then we saw.....

Never Say Never 18:35 Available

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPPPP WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPP

It was the BEST feeling in the world honestly. We spent two hours chasing this guy's movie and WE FINALLY GOT IT. I'm so proud of my friends really. And especially Calvina BECAUSE SHE IS NOT EVEN A BLIEBER AND SHE RAN WITH US! THANKS CALVINA!

And wow, the running was WORTH IT. The movie is so heartwarming, it really is. I cried TWICE OMG. I NEVER cry while watching movies. But well, I guess Justin's wise words of Never Say Never were true. HAHAHAHA OMG I LOVE JUSTIN BIEBER I WANNA BE HIS MOTHER.

Seriously, this movie is not for Bieber's fans, it's for haters because it will melt the ice inside your hearts. HAHA HONESTLY EVERYONE SHOULD WATCH IT LA DAMMIT.

And after watching the movie, I cannot stand guys who complain about how gay Justin is because what we learnt from Friday was.... MOST OF THE MOVIE GOERS WERE FREAKING GUYS SIA! I don't care whether they were bringing their girlfriends. I don't care whether they were going to make fun of it. I just know that THEY paid for a Never Say Never ticket so indirectly, they had just contributed to his increasing success. SO SUCK IT.

Speaking of guys, I am going to end up #foreveralone because after watching that movie, EVERYONE INCLUDING MYSELF IS SO MEDIOCRE OMG. Shuyin made a good point when she said "Omg my future boyfriend will never beat Justin Bieber because he's probably going to be some IT kid working in an office." SO TRUE!

But nahhh, I had a KP (lololololololol) phase once which I managed to get rid of after MONTHS of heartbreaks so I'm sure I'll get out of JB's phase. I MUST. IF NOT I WILL SERIOUSLY BE ALONE FOR THE REST OF MY LIVE FEEDING WHISKERS TO MY ELEVEN CATS IN EUNOS.

But honestly, go watch Never Say Never. You might not love him after the movie, but you will gain a new perspective on Justin Bieber so stop being so ignorant about his talents AND CATCH IT NOW KTHANKS.

Slept over Jaja's place and met BABY S!

Tired (teenage) Mom

This made me sad too :(

2011-04-20T09:31:00.000+08:00

RETAARRDDDDDDDDDDD

2011-04-18T20:40:00.001+08:00

I COULD HAVE DONE THIS FOR MY 9483224342 HISTORY ESSAYS.

2011-04-15T23:10:00.003+08:00

6NE TH5RD

2011-04-14T20:36:00.002+08:00

Pictures from our failed attempt at getting a free cone at Ben&Jerry's (ended up at Secret Recipe eating Kids Meal instead) and outing with Mumsie and Baby Q! Proper post on the weekends promise~~~~~

SINGAPORE PHOTOS!

2011-04-10T18:43:00.003+08:00

Meanwhile, I shall post boring Singapore photos... HAH KIDDING SINGAPORE, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! MUCH MORE THAN NYC&BOSTON&CANADA COMBINED!

Seriously, I was damnnnnn homesick and I didn't know why the rest were just so happy there. Felt like it took FOREVER for our flight home. Can never leave Singapore. NEVER.

Anyway no captions for photos since it screws up the format and I will look like an idiot who doesn't know how to paragraph her sentences. So basically, it's just more photos of BabyQ who is just so adorable and irritating at the same time. Photos of dinner with Faith and CM! And photos of Arab Street with Mumsie. Urghhh why are the weekends so shorttttttttttttttt.

I HATE BEING A RESPONSIBLE, WORKING ADULT.

Note to future employers/deans/bosses/etc: Just kidding..

I HAZ NY&BOSTON&CANADA PHOTOS!

2011-04-10T18:39:00.001+08:00

But I shall not upload them all now. Just a few photos for the moment!

HAHAHAHAHA STHO FUNNY

2011-04-09T11:14:00.000+08:00

GELEBI

2011-04-03T21:47:00.004+08:00

Pictures before I disappear for another few days. Breakfast with Heeqmah before signing up for BTT. Got lost as usual. Took us two hours to get to Ubi from Tampines. Should have gone to Kovan's but nooooooooooooooooooo. So yeah, signed up for BTT already and bought our books! Private for us, auto for her and manual for me.

Went to Serangooon with my mum to get things threaded and shop at Mustafa!

LOVE RUPINI'S! Even though it hurts like a bitch when they did the U.L. but totally worth the pain man.

Stupid restaurant poster which listed the characteristics of carnivores, herbivores and us humans. According to the poster, since we don't have claws and weaker acid than HCL in our stomach, we were meant to eat gardens. WHATEVER SIA. ANIMALS ARE FOOD, NOT FRIENDS. Except for kittens and puppies. Thanks.

FISH&CHIPS&DALES

2011-04-01T22:10:00.007+08:00

I'm so tired honestly I'm just gonna let the pictures do the talking. But before that, let me just tell you that I had the WORST DAY AT WORK EVER this afternoon. Haiyoh, every single thing I did was wrong and by 3pm, I was brain dead and nothing looks right or wrong in my eyes so I started playing with my calculator for another two hours and I even screwed that up because the memory's totally lost. WHY AM I SO USELESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. And it's already really exhausting on normal days but today was just pure SHAT. Imagine doing a maths question, and getting it wrong even though you find NOTHING WRONG in your methods or workings. Super maths-based, my job really. Need to start practising my maths again. Hai. Anyway Friday is my favourite day ever. I told myself that nothing could go wrong because it's a Friday and even if I get scolded, I can always have the weekends to bury my sorrows. But I guess God took it as a challenge and just.... SMACK ME WITH ELEVEN PORTS TO VERIFY TODAY. But it's alright since I met Heeqmah for dinner at Manhattan Fish Market. I mean, hello, $3.99 for Fish&Chips. I initially thought it was a prank when the waitress told me yesterday about the special offer. I mean, it is April Fool's today and I can't sue them for false advertising because they didn't advertise it. BUT NO. IT'S TRUE! WE ORDERED SIX FISH AND CHIPS FOR $35 PLUS DRINKS AND TAXSHITZ. And the best part is, WE GOT A SEAT IN ONE MINUTE. I mean the queue was seriously scarily long and they were giving out free drinks for people who are waiting. So I told Heeqmah at 8:01, "Eh by 8:30 if we don't get a table, we leave ah." And then at 8:02, "Excuse me Miss, but table for two right here." WHOOOOOOOOOOTSSSSSSS. Anyway it was a good dinner. Kinda like a business meeting cum dinner. Hehehe I hope everything goes well though but I love the ideas that we're already discussing. Anyway, big day tomorrow so I shall get some shut eye. Let me just post the pictures already. Let's start with me pissing the fuck out of Baby Q.

:/

2011-03-28T22:26:00.004+08:00

Been a while since I last updated, huh? Super sorry. After coming home, I'm just super lethargic. I don't even want to do anything, just lie in my bed and watch Style Network all day. But I can't because 1)I keep screwing up my uni applications and I'm in the midst of irritating the admission teams by bombarding them with emails and calls. 2)I got a job. I'm quite happy with it except for that fact that I am so friggin scared of making mistakes. I mean, I don't want to ruin my dad's reputation at work so I gotta step it up :( Anyway, I guess I'll be blogging only on the weekends since I am so tired on the weekdays because dad makes me get ready by 6:30am to drive us to work WHEN I CLEARLY START AT 8AM. But that's ok, I found a room in the building with massage chairs. Shall test them out before work tomorrow haha Met with practically EVERYONE since I came back and I'm truly blessed to have long-term friends like them. Don't get me wrong, I like my casual friends too but it warms my heart when I get a text message like "Hey KP! How have you been? Wanna meet for lunch? Miss you :)" AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. So anyway, the latest adventure I had was with Heeqmah when we went to NEX for the first time. I LOVE IT THERE. The shops are frigging nice! I mean, they are all neighbourhood brands but HELLO. THAT MEANS $10 TOPS/DRESSES GAH. When is PAYDAY? Anyway, I only took two pictures since Heeqmah brought her Sony NEX camera so we camwhored with that instead. Went home early since parents wanted to eat out for dinner. My goodness, I can't remember when was the last time we had dinner out. Months ago, I think. OK THIS DOES NOT MEAN THAT MY FAMILY IS HAVING SOME KIND OF DOMESTIC PROBLEM OR WHATEVER WE ARE JUST LAZY SO WE ORDER IN ALMOST EVERY NIGHT. K THANKS BYE.

This shall be my meal for the next one month. I gained 3 friggin kg since I came back WHAT THE HELL. I thought I was doing so well with my diet. Sometimes, I don't even know why I torture myself. But thank god salads are delicious.

Had the vegan pasta, thinking I was being all healthy but after two bites, I GAVE UP. Me and vegetables just don't go together. Ok I know I just said salads are delicious but that's cos of the dressing!!! This pasta.... It's disgusting and oily. I'd say go for the lasagna instead because they are so generous with the cheese and it's HUGE.

Alrighty, gotta sleep soon. Nights!

BACK FOR SEC

2011-03-13T19:49:00.002+08:00

Omgosh I'm finally blogging! I'm all right I came back safely and New York was a lovely place but my heart's set in Singapore I love this ah pek country too much I sound like a true blue Singaporean but honestly this country is HOME. Anyway I will blog about NY as soon as I get my life settled here aka uni app, job app

AND GETTING MY HANDS ON A JUSTIN BIEBER CONCERT TICKET.

SINGAPORE

2011-02-10T15:36:00.002+08:00

Alrighty last day in Singapore! So I gotta blog before I leave for the (omg) 27 hours of journey to my destination. Please please please let there be good movies on the plane or I will just start banging my head against the angmoh next to me.

Anyway, MY MUM IS BACK FINALLYYYYYYY. I have to say I did miss her but then the feeling got away when she started being all irritating and needy but remembering my last post, I did say "thank you" to her though :)

So while the parents were away, I've been sleeping almost everywhere in Pasir Ris. Felt like a complete slut when they would call me and say "You wanna sleep my place tonight?" and I would agree. I miss my bed, I really do. Too bad I'm not gonna have that ONE solitary night that I really crave since I'll be away for 21 days with three other people and a baby. That baby better be quiet at night or else I'm shoving her under the couch.

I'm gonna miss my Baby Q!

This is the last time I'm gonna say I WISH I DON'T HAVE TO RELY ON MY BB CAMERA because I'm totally gonna get a camera there! It's like $100-$200 cheaper there so CANON, COME TO MAMA!

Oh! Then I'm gonna miss my family

I absolutely love going to my aunt's place because everytime I go there, she's always baking and assembling wedding cakes and I got this picture (turn your head to the side please thanks) of her latest creation which I LOVE. I'm definitely booking her for my wedding on 31st February.

I'm obviously gonna miss my Dad because I haven't seen him since FOREVER. He's coming back on Saturday but I'll be away tonight so that means I'm not gonna see him for a whole month :( I just feel that I should be there when he needs his family the most (his mother passed away on Sunday) but at least he gives us a couple of calls a day.

Moving on.

But I was happy that I never felt empty when my parents were away. I met up with my old friends and Sharifah slept over at my place it was all great. Perfect timing! AND EVERYBODY FAITH IS NOW AN ECONS TEACHER AT MERIDIAN JC, PLEASE GO LAUGH AT HER NOW. HAHAHAHAHA Kidding Faithy :) Had an awesome time with her at Simpang! Although the food there SUCKS. But catching up with Faith was good. NOW I NEED TO CATCH UP WITH EVERYBODY ELSE WHEN I GET BACK OMG I FEEL SO FRIENDLESS SINCE I QUIT MY JOB!

Yesterday night was crazy. I left my office (last day at work baybeh!) and I felt super empty and aimless. Of course I do get annoyed at the fact that I need to wake up at 7am everyday for work but now that I'm not working, there's like NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO. And the friends I made there, omg they are awesome. We had a delicious lunch and I swear Fatimah makes the best beef lasagna EVER. I will miss the unofficial 1hr tea break we always take since the Boss went to Malaysia, the "pretend to be hardworking" look we always give, the "old people" talk which I think is pretty funny but they don't :( and obviously I miss the satisfaction of punching in my card at the end of the day after working intensively (LOL) for 8 hours. But I guess everyone needs to move on and I've got a plan once I come back from Singapore. Insyallah it'll happen because I'm really excited to share it with you guys!

Omg so yeah last night. Went to serangoon road to buy indian sweets for my friends @ NLB, Mustafa Centre and eyebrow threading. Not too happy with the eyebrow threading though. Almost painless but THERE IS NO SHAPE. And the skin around my eyes are stinging still but oh well, at least my eyebrows are neater YAY! But I'd still recommend Rupini's for eyebrow threading. A little painful but their shaping is fantastic!

WENT TO REBOND MY HAIR TODAY! Wah, this is one of the most painful rebonding sessions I've ever had! I got some newbies and there were four people pulling, combing, ironing my hair and I got burnt like TWENTY TIMES and I think my brain is friggin fried right now. But YAY NO MORE FRIZZY ROOTS! Was supposed to dye it as well but I figured my hair's damaged enough and I hate it when your darker roots grow so you have two different colours on your head. LIKE IT IS CURRENTLY. So I'm just gonna wait till the whole hair turns the same shade so I can go cut it!

OMG WHY CAN'T I JUST HAVE MY OLD HAIR BACK WHYYYYYYYYYYYY. I had frigging GOLDEN hair damn it. I swear when I get hold of a scanner, the first thing I'm gonna scan is my baby photo because no one believes me when I say I had almost-blonde/brownish hair. NEED TO FIND A SCANNER ASAP.

Anyway I think I got to go and I don't really know if I'm bringing my lappie there because the charger's voltage thingy or whatever is different there and my lappie might actually EXPLODE if I don't use the correct charger. But I'm sure I'm able to get Internet access there! I'm gonna post pictures once we reached! I'm still not telling where I'm going because 1)I don't want to sacrifice a ton of my shopping money to buy souvenirs since I do need to get a camera there and a hair curler and 2) I iz a humblegirl_92@hotmail.com HAHAHAHA RIGHT.

Omg I really really hope I have enough shopping money. I mean, when my dad gave it to me, I actually wanted to return it back because I thought it was too much but now I realised I have to withdraw money later at the airport since we'll be taking a bunch of road trips there and I wanna get stuff from every single state and country. And Shushu wants her damn H pullover which already cost 50bucks. PFFTTT But omg, I will miss Shushu! And RACHAEL OMG THAT BITCH IS GOING TO HONGKONG FOR FIVE MONTHS FOR HER INTERNSHIP AND SHE DIDN'T EVEN TELL ME :( But no la, have fun there but don't come home pregnant ah.

Omg 21 days is a long time man. I just hope I won't get bored. And I will try not to think about my Alevel results and have a good time there.

Ok I really got to go finish packing! I REALLY HOPE I CAN BLOG THERE SO THIS IS NOT GOODBYE, THIS IS A SEE YOU LATER!

:)

2011-02-03T14:20:00.002+08:00

Just a short post. First of all, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR MY CHINESE FRIENDS! Please hurry up with your visiting because I need malls and restaurants to be opened so, thanks.

Secondly, I was thinking how much we all take our mothers for granted. I spent the night at my aunt's place since my parents don't trust me to stay alone at home, I know right.....

So anyway. There were four daughters, three mothers, two grandchildren and one grandmother in the house. And while I was pretending to stone, the babies were crying their hearts out, popping, making noise for no reason and all that shit. And then I thought to myself how frigging dedicated these mothers were. I mean, I'm not just talking about my cousins but mothers in general.

I go into nursing rooms and there are mothers, who look who damn tired but they try to feed their babies, change their nappies and calm them down. And then yesterday, when I witnessed HOURS of my cousins trying to keep their babies happy and safe and I was sitting down there like a bitch just feeling irritated with all the crying but looking at the mothers trying their best and keeping calm, I truly think being a mother is really a tough job sia.

Can you imagine, nine months of carrying a watermelon in your body, taking in all the back pains, morning sickness, not fitting into nice clothes, not having nice hair (since you can't put chemicals in your hair when you're pregnant). And then after that nine months, THERE IS THE CONFINEMENT PERIOD. THIRTY DAYS OF STAYING AT HOME AND JUST FEEDING YOUR CHILD AND LISTENING TO THEM CRY. Any person would have checked themselves into a mental hospital between that period but mothers don't.

And after that thirty days, there is THE REST OF THEIR LIVES UNTIL THEY GET MARRIED.

Which is prolly about 30 years. And it doesn't get easier as the years go by.

0-10 years is when you have to teach your child EVERYTHING and really nurture them.

10-15 years is when you have to worry about puberty and deal with their shitz of becoming a "man" or a "woman".

15-20 years is when you make sure your child gets a good education, gets a good school and choose the right friends AND STILL DEAL WITH THEIR PUBERTY SHITZ.

20-30 years is when you let them out into the real world and just HOPE FOR THE BEST.

I'd say that's a really, really long time and then besides your children, you have to deal with your useless spouse who's just gonna throw the kids at you and say "You're the mother, you do it." because no matter what your future husbands and boyfriends say, THEY ARE OF NO USE when it comes to kids.

And after all that, mothers can still say that they love their kids, which I find truly amazing. Yes, your mum might be a bitch sometimes, acting like she's all menopausal but have you tried putting yourselves in your mums' position? I mean, she could have frigging ABORTED you but she didn't. She chose a life that is completely exhausting, but rewarding (even though I'm not sure how because kids these days are fucking monsters).

I have to admit, I'm not a perfect child. Which is sad because I am the only child and I'm sure every parent who has only ONE KID wishes that kid to be perfect. But sadly, I'm not. And witnessing how dedicated my father was to his mum, watching how Jaja wakes up every hour in the middle of the night to rock her baby to sleep and experiencing what it's like to be parentless, I'd say tonight, we go to our mothers and say THANK YOU. Unless your mum like practically gave you to your maid or some childcare centre when you were a kid. But besides that, thank them. Because that's the least that they deserved really.

Omg I don't know why I'm getting all emotional even though it's Chinese New Year and not Mother's Day for God's sake but I think it has something to do with my parents being away but I really hope I made some sense though.

2011-01-31T19:41:00.002+08:00

Grandma's in critical condition again. Parents are leaving for India on Wed and they're not letting me go. I want to cry :(

HI EVERYBODY

2011-01-30T20:30:00.002+08:00

I'm not going to blog for a few weeks till I leave Singapore since it probably wouldn't be as interesting as the future February posts.

So yeah. HIATUS TILL SECOND WEEK OF FEB!

P.S MY FATHER IS BACK FROM INDIAAAAAAAAA! WHEET WHEETTTT. Seriously, I have never seen a more dedicated son than him. He actually booked a flight within a few hours of knowing that my grandma is sick. But thank God, she's okay now. YAY DAD I LOVE YOU!

SHAGGGGGED

2011-01-23T21:40:00.002+08:00

I SERIOUSLY NEED MY WEEKENDS TO BE LONGER. My weekends are packed with friends, family and sleep. And weekdays are obviously for work and omg, tomorrow I have to settle with my agent about ending my contract early and if things go bad, I might be $600 poorer :(

Anyway yesterday I went to meet Heeqmah at Bedok Point since I heard it was filled with food, food and more food. But nyeh, most of them were non-halal so we settled for Pastamania. OH! I bumped into Puja before that and she just took her SATs! Talked about our post-A's plans and let's just say, things are super uncertain right now I think I might crack. Apparently Mumsie told Jaja that she's afraid that I might fall into a bad mental state like I did when I received my PW results. But if that ever happens, I think I might just run away to Changi beach or something and don't come back till I'm sane hahahaha WHO'S WITH ME?

So had a ketchup session with Heeqmah who has very kindly disappeared from work ( "please return the pass or we will call the POLICE" LOL). And we headed down to Tampines 1 for New Look. OMGAWD I LOVE NEW LOOK SALES. I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT. I WAS SO TEMPED TO BUY LIKE A LOT OF THINGS BUT MY MUM DOESN'T LET ME BUY ANYTHING UNTIL WE LEAVE THE COUNTRY. Anyway, my account balance is so depressing to look at even though I just got my pay like two weeks ago because 1) I keep on spending on food food and food. 2) Meetups with friends are not cheap and 3) GFREAKINGMARKET.

Anyway. Perangai fatso to the max since we just had lunch at Pastamania and two hours later, when we were ready to order our ice cream from Swensons', we saw the girls beside us and their food just looks super delicious so we had a second lunch AND ICE CREAM SUNDAES. Within two hours. I am so not going to fit into my winter coat. I swear.

Talked about Bollywood which is not really a usual topic for us to discuss because she always talks about Arjun Rampal and I don't really care for such drug addicts BUT NO. YESTERDAY WE TALKED ABOUT AMIR KHAN OMGAWDDDDDDDDDDDD. He is the only Hindustani actor that I will ever love. I don't mind being his fifth wife. But the question is, does he mind ME? HAHAHA OMG I WANNA MARRY HIM. KTHANKSBYE.

Went to find KOI bubble tea which just opened at Tamps interchange. I have never seen such a long queue for a bubble tea in my life. They actually issued numbers like they do when you go see a doctor cos there are just too many people. And I got a friggin heart attack when they asked me "Do you want 100% sugar?" and I'm like thinking the cup's gonna be filled with just sugar, not even water, and that's just INSANE. And the price is more insane than the 100% sugar thingy.

I PAID ELEVEN DOLLARS FOR THREE CUPS OF BUBBLE TEA.

I.... don't get it. It's so friggin overpriced I don't even know why there's a queue in the first place. MY GOD THEY ARE THIEVES.

So went back to cousin's place and spent the night there. I don't know why but I sleeptalk whenever I'm at their place. I mean, I'm pretty sure I sleep like a baby without any sounds at home but whenever I'm at their place, I say the most ridiculous things ever. Once I asked my Aunt, "How many colours are there in a rainbow?" and just yesterday, I told Jaja "Chinese Mongolian soldier. Someone died." and then I went back to sleep.

HAHAHA I find it quite hilarious actually but kinda creepy since I only do it when I'm staying over their place. Hmmm...........

So anyway. Went over to Q's place and her mum baked like FIVE CHOCOLATE CAKES and GUESS WHO GOT TO LICK THE CHOCOLATE OFF THE BOWL?

ME.

KbyeIamsotiredsoIamgoingtosleep.

2011-01-19T21:39:00.003+08:00

Omg I just clicked "Publish" and then...

"Hi Maam. The MP Dr Ahmad Mohd Magad is going to walk around and he's gonna talk to you for a while. Is that ok?"
"Yeah sure."
(2 mins later)
"Ok Maam, he is here."
"OH HAI MR MP! HOW ARE YA!"
"Yes, hello. I am your MP and I would like to know if everything's alright."
"YEAH! Everything's perfect I love Pasir Ris!"
"Ok so I'll just pass you this brochure and have a good night."

I am such a twoface bitch. But I really hope he has a son around my age. WHEET WHEET.

99 Oz

2011-01-19T21:20:00.002+08:00

So I haven't blog since forever but you honestly can't blame me for not wanting to look at the lappie after looking at the computer for 8 hours at work. I have so many things to blog about, my God. The meeting with my friends, who I realize are so freaking gorgeous they make me wanna call a plastic surgeon ASAP. Then there's this deep post about life and death which I came up after witnessing my granduncle at his deathbed. And there's one on my littlest niece who came to stay at my place for a few nights which made me realize I can never be a mother. And I met my bb, Nadia for breakfast! Only took this picture (which I stole from her twitter LOL)

Idiot. Don't wanna take my face. PLASTIC SURGEON I TELL YOU.

Anyway I really promise to update more often because there are just so many things that I wanna say but I have to wait till I get home from work but then I'll be too shagged to do anything so that sorta explains the lack of posts. But don't worry, everything's going alright. I can safely say for the first time in my life, I am truly happy :) But let's just hope it stays that way till AT LEAST March. GAWDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

MY TWO FAVOURITE NIECES :)

2011-01-14T18:35:00.001+08:00

You know I was thinking, "Worst case scenario would be the both of them waking up and I'm alone."

Guess what happened.

THIS IS TOO CUTE TO MISS!

2011-01-13T21:54:00.002+08:00

I want a husband and an awesome baby like this. Don't even need to be in that order. HEHE

I don't need a boyfriend, just a husband.

2011-01-13T21:20:00.002+08:00

Anyway I am so friggin hungry but Dad ordered vegetarian meals tonight. OMG I SWEAR THIS DIET IS GONNA KILL MEHHHHHH.

THANK YOU.

2011-01-10T20:24:00.000+08:00

2011-01-10T20:12:00.002+08:00

To my beautiful friend,

Have a great birthday today! I honestly thought it was the 9th today. That's no excuse but... Beb, I put this picture of myself (and Heeqmah HAHAHA) already sia. I think that covers it ah.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NABLAHABLA!

FLAKES

2011-01-08T22:41:00.003+08:00

Just got back from shopping at Orchard with mumsie. Damn, Singapore is seriously overpopulated. I was researching at work when I stumbled upon this fact:

Singapore is the second-most populated country in the world.

And shopping at Orchard on a weekend just confirmed that. And it didn't help that everyone was moving at a pace of like, 1cm/minute or something.

Anyway, in the morning, we went to see the winter sale with Jaja but couldn't find anything nice there so we went to Orchard to try our luck. Dad gave me an impossible budget to work with BUT I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF PLEASE. I managed to find everything PLUS I had like $50 to spare. Wheet wheet. Ok, I'm not really sure whether the coat's thick enough and I'll most likely freeze to death there. But whatever, at least I'll die fashionable.

GOT A HAT TOO!

Obviously I'm not going to wear it like that. Just trying to be a mysterious blogger. Cheyyyy hahahaha

And omg, I didn't know it was OLIVE GREEN. I thought it was brown! Omg I swear I need to quit my job. It's destroying my 20/20 vision eyes, without a doubt.

Omg I swear I am so scared of this trip. Like, I know I'm supposed to be looking forward to it and all but I have two main concerns.

The first one being the weather. I cannot, cannot, cannot tahan cold weather. Seriously, my aircon is set to 27 degrees every night. I'll freeze if it's below that. So it really doesn't help that I'm going to face, I don't know, zero degrees there. Yup, gonna freeze to death there for sure. Which is helpful since I don't really wanna face my second concern which is obviously Alevel results.

The thing is, I'm not collecting my results in the hall. I'm only coming back on the 7th of March and I have a feeling the results are gonna be released in late February. I mean, I don't know how to feel about this. On one hand, I rather be away from all the drama in the hall. On the other hand, I do wanna know what the principal has to say and all that. This trip could either be a damn perfect holiday or a damnnnnnnnnnnn disastrous one.

Awesome. I'm either gonna freeze to death, or suffocate myself with guilt.

OK BYE.

Resolutions

2011-01-03T00:45:00.002+08:00

Whoops. Forgot my 2011 Resolutions. Nothing complicated, just basic ones like

1) Respect my parents.
2) Read the Quran more often.
3) Drink 3 litres of water every day.
4) Do 50 push-ups and 100 crunches everyday
5) Be more appreciative of life, no matter what happens.

December 2010

2011-01-02T23:20:00.008+08:00

Actually, I had a great December. I mean, if you don't count me working and waking up at 7:30am all that. But besides that, I had an awesome last week of 2010. I celebrated Christmas at KL which was actually pretty crazy. It didn't feel like KL. There were tons and I mean TONS of hot guys walking around the streets of KL, from the Middle East, US, UK and they were all holding foam sprays, waiting to have a great Christmas. And they were EXTREMELY good-looking. Did I mention they were good-looking?

They were good-looking. Honest to God.

So anyway, I have a few pictures but none of them had like pictures of hot dudes. I mean, it's pretty hard taking pictures at that point of time because they would just spray your camera. So here are like, four pictures:

It looked like it was snowing in KL but nyeh, just some cheap four for RM10 foam sprays. But omg, I loved every single minute of it. Of course, it didn't hurt that there were some eye candies around ;) But it did hurt like a bitch when they sprayed my eyes. I don't get it. Everyone was spraying each other's eyes. DAMN PAINFUL SIA.

Moving on to New Year's Eve.

We had it all planned out and I was already making hotdogs at 1pm and then, the female drama began and all I remember was the panadol extra that I took which knocked me out COLD and I only woke up at 6pm. Damn late since the party started at 3 or 4? Which sucks because I really wanted to play in the Amazing Race all that :(

Anyway, the party was at Heeqmah's condo.

Got the pool deck and my God, the management is so good there! THERE WERE FAIRY LIGHTS EVERYWHERE.

Non-alcoholic. We keep it clean baby.

TWINS!

Ok my sequence of photos is majorly screwed up. Because I remember Heeqmah's angry text messages and asking me where I was and telling me the rest were late. Rae was at her bible study, Sharifah was late at work. And it was a bit weird when Heeqmah told me to wait for her at the security guardhouse since they're not letting people in.

But I did meet Heeqmah eventually and then I went to the pool deck and there were only two people there; Shuyin and Cal.

We were all talking and then some kids were making noises at the back and then someone started singing "Happy Birthday" so I turned around and it was dark and I saw four girls carrying a birthday cake and I was thinking "Omg. Ah lians alert."

BUT NO. THEY WERE NOT AH LIANS. AHAHAH THEY WERE MY FRIENDS!

It was seriously a COMPLETE SURPRISE. Honest to God, that was a good one. I mean, my 18th birthday wasn't that great compared to my 17th one since I had to work from 9-6 and then in the evening, I had to pick up my cousins from the airport. But this definitely made it better. Thank you :)

Me looking pissed off at Vanessa. I don't even know why. HAHA

"MY WORK ENDED LATE." Yeah right.

BEST THING EVER.

We soon started watching a horror movie and the first one was The Exorcist. Yup, the ACTUAL, FIRST EVER Exorcist. Supposedly the scariest one where pregnant women kena miscarriages and people die from heart attacks.

Kawanzxz at the back row too busy taking pictures of themselves to watch. TSK TSK. But nyeh, the movie was too draggy so we skipped scenes and caught a few scary scenes before we decided to just watch another movie. Not because it was scary but it was too soft and we couldn't hear a thing. So we watched The Last Exorcism.

The movie wasn't scary. It was more of a gory movie, especially towards the end where they burnt the baby. I don't get Americans and their views on horror movie. Like, The Last Exorcism and Paranormal Activity. PARANORMAL ACTIVITY IS NOT EVEN CONSIDERED HORROR LA. More like porn. Oh, speaking of porn, I watched Black Swan a few nights ago! Everyone ( above 18 obviously) should watch it, seriously. Natalie Portman is just AMAZING. Although a few sexual scenes were not needed but then again, maybe I'm not deep enough to get them.

Nah. Definitely borderline porn.

OK back to innocent, G-rated fairy lights!

After the horror movie, we headed to Bedok Reservoir Park to countdown. To be honest, I wasn't comfortable there. It was too dark and there were a couple of groups waiting to get drunk and it just didn't feel right la. But nonetheless, we played a couple of games and sparklers!

Johnny English"

It was a good start to the new year :)

Today, my father and I went to the fish farm to buy fishes. I don't know what hit my dad. He suddenly had the urge to buy fishes and keep them as pets. We bought ten. One died already. We are so lousy I swear.

OMG 7 MORE HOURS TILL I HAVE TO WAKE UP. NOT GOOD. GOODBYE!

2011-01-01T13:32:00.002+08:00

Hope everyone had a great time last night :)

LIKE A BOSS, I FELT, WHEN SENDING THIS FB MAIL

2010-12-29T23:45:00.002+08:00

Ok I've worked out the itinerary!
if you're confused, scroll down to the bottom after reading it!

3-4pm guests arrive (can come earlier if u want)
4-4:30pm light lunch
4:30pm-5:30pm AMAZING RACE (worked this out alrd, no worries)
5:30-6:30pm *change to swimming costumes
6:30pm-8pm wash up (change to dinner outfit) and have dinner
8pm-10pm **watch a horror movie
10pm- 11:30pm free time (LOL)
11:30-11:45pm ***open secret santa presents
00:00 2011 BAYBEHHHHHHH :)

*please bring two outfits. one for swimming, and one for dinner. something nice since it's the LAST OUTFIT OF 2010 AND THE FIRST OUTFIT OF 2011! for the early afternoon programme, wear comfort clothes.

** can someone pls bring a dvd? if dont want horror movie, then anything can ah. just wanna fill the slot up.

*** RACHAEL HO said secret santa was fun last year so we're gonna do this again! everyone needs to bring a present, approx $11 since it's 2011, and then when you arrive, we're gonna number the present. at 11:45pm, we're gonna draw numbers and you're gonna pick the present which correspond with your number.

REPLY TO CONFIRM AGAIN. OPEN TO SUGGESTIONS BABES

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Yeah, how the hell am I suppose to find a present when I have work tomorrow? AND I NEED TO GET STUFF FOR THE AMAZING RACE TOO MY GOD. Gonna check out the Expo Sale after work tomorrow to see if I can get something around $11! PLEASE LET IT BE A GOOD DAY TOMORROW.

FRIDAY TOO!

:/

2010-12-29T21:55:00.002+08:00

Work has been so exhausting lately, it's crazzzyeeeeee. I'm still tired from the 5hour drive home from KL. Anyway, tomorrow's the last day at work in 2010. Shall wear something pretty!

I PROMISE TO BLOG PROPER IN 2011!

PETALING

2010-12-21T23:22:00.003+08:00

Guess I'm not gonna blog proper tonight. I AM SO SORRY. I swear after I come back from KL on Sunday, I am gonna start being a blogger. Ok just in case, make that Tuesday.

Anyway, since I'm going to miss 3 days of work, Heeqmah this is for you:

YOU ARE HAVING THE FIRST WEEK SYNDROME.

The first week of work is always the worst. I know I said I like my job and all that but at times, I do think that I could be waking up at 2pm, sleeping at 5am, lying on the couch and laze around the house. But we can do that after our contract ends! Plus, it's always better to have a meaningful vacation than to do NOTHING AT ALL!

So like I said, first week will be your worst. That's probably because your body clock is not fixed yet and your brain is like dead from the last Econs paper but chill, IT GETS BETTER! Just think of it as a practice for the real thing after uni. Even though I CANNOT do 9-5 hours (and God knows YOU CANT YOU LAZY ARSE) and work in an office, but the experience there is really good. I swear I felt the EXACT same way during my first week (even worse since I was the only teenager there and you were almost gonna ditch me for SPH. Idiot.) but think of it as a measurement of your perseverance. Or you can go all religious and think that there's a reason why God gave you this job. Works for me :)

And if you STILL, DESPITE ME DEDICATING A BLOGPOST TO YOU, feel restless at work, think of Baby Q.

OBELISK

2010-12-20T22:20:00.003+08:00

So I haven't been blogging religiously like I should but I AM JUST SO TIRED. Within two days, I have become a tourist guide for my two cousins who just came from India. So we went Sentosa, Underwater World, Mandai Zoo, Orchad Road and Changi. So I'm obviously very shagged. PLUS THERE IS WORK. Omg.

Anyway, just a few pictures as appetizers. Shall blog proper before leaving for KL.

MALAYSIA YEAR END SALE BAYBEH!

I find the interior view of the Christmas tree more gorgeous than the exterior actually. Which reminds me, I accidentally bought a mini Christmas tree (I thought it was fern) and I really need to start decorating it before it dies in a few days. Totally forgot that plants are living things and they need water too :/

Birthday Suit

2010-12-15T20:38:00.003+08:00

I'm so sorry for the lack of updates! I'm gonna blog proper once I get my eyesight back. Oh dear God please don't let me wear specs, it's just not worth it.

Anyway, I've been thinking of my birthday outfit this Friday. Honest to God, I forgot about the big oneeight. I don't know, I still feel like it's October. HAHA! But really, I was minding my own business when my dad went, "Eh, this Friday is your birthday." and I'm like "No shit. It's December?"

I don't even know where the year went. I reckon it's because of Alevels since that's the only thing on my mind this year. But now that it's over, I don't even know where to begin sey.

Well at least I've been exercising my brain at work. It can be frustrating at times but I like it when I get asked to identify the origins of 19 century photographs and I'll be like "IT'S BURMA! I STUDIED BURMA LIKE MAD THIS YEAR!" Yup it's History all over again but seriously, 100times better than the shit we did for two years.

So anyway. I need a friggin birthday outfit this Friday. I can't wear my dresses since 99% of them are not appropriate for work. OMG THIS IS STRESSING ME OUT BIG TIME. Need to find an outfit in 48 hours.

ELEPHUNK

2010-12-12T20:14:00.002+08:00

Just came back from Sharifah's place with Heeqmah. Mygod, I miss Woodlands. It's like the only place where I can be myself since I don't really know anybody who lives there except Sharifah. Went on popcorn hunt from Cold Storage where we went "First one to find popcorn wins a husband!" HAHAHA

We should do it more often. Heeqmah's place next time! Since she has that Kinect thingy. NEXT WEEKEND!

So on Thursday, my parents actually left me and brought Baby Q to MANDAI ZOO. I WAS SO JEALOUS I SWEAR. One of my post-As plans was to go to the zoo since I haven't seen the zoo in about 10 years. And they just left me :(

Ok la I had work but still. For the sake of this entry, let's just pretend that I went to the zoo with them.

So last Thursday, I went to the zoo with my parents and Baby Q.

PICTURES!!

She was crying in the picture above because she thought that the pond was a swimming pool. HAHAHA She seriously wanted to jump into the pond but cannot la. Trust me, I was there.

I swear my niece is a gangster. She didn't let anyone touch "her" cow. She just kept scolding the girl asking her to back off! Poor kid.

I don't know why ~~my parents~~ we took so little pictures. It's the camera la, WE NEED TO INVEST IN A BETTER CAMERA.

NIGHT :)

MUDPIE

2010-12-12T00:32:00.002+08:00

So I went to IKEA and got myself starry lights. I thought 7m of them would be enough but no, I needed 10m. But I'm still very happy with the current state. I wanna put starry lights on my ceiling but that would be too much no?

Shall blog proper tomorrow after my date with Sharifah and Heeqmah. Nites.

KAPS

2010-12-10T22:01:00.003+08:00

Dear Noor Heeqmah,

CAN YOU PLEASE STOP CALLING ME NURAISHAH?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!??!?

Sincerely,
curry chicken.

P.S I want the maroon shoe on your blog. 31st December!

2010-12-08T22:33:00.001+08:00

Learn patience from Asiyah,
Loyalty from Khadijah,
Purity from Maryam,
Sincerity from Aishah,
Steadfastness from Fatimah.

CHI CHI

2010-12-07T21:16:00.002+08:00

One of the few downsides of the job is that I ONLY HAVE 30 MINS WITH BABY AFTER WORK. I swear I miss her like mad. I really don't know how her mum does it but I'll just start missing her after an hour into the job. I need to start taking leaves man.

OK NO. MUST COMMIT TO THIS JOB.

It was quite cool today. I was dealing with photographs of the old Victoria School, Tanjong Katong School, basically the whole Katong area and it was kinda eggciting going "OMG I KNOW THIS PLACE!" Plus there's like a whole lot of History involved and I know I may have said some nasty things about History but you know, it's really a subject that you can love. I mean, as compared to subjects like Bio and POA, like who the hell says "OMG I LOVE BIO."

Anyway. Point is, I miss my little niece and the job's kinda cool. Goodnight!

FURST

2010-12-06T22:19:00.002+08:00

Wah sian. Look like a friggin MAID in my JC1 photo.

First day at work. Kinda scary at first since I didn't really know what to do and I was telling myself "DO NOT STONE. DO NOT STONE. DO NOT STONE." In the end, I didn't and I am very proud of myself please. Anyway work was alright, the people there are nice and I already love the environment. Forget lorry drivers, I see ang mohs at the food court AMEN. I didn't screw anything up but that's to be confirmed since nobody really checked my progress today. Omg I hope I did everything right cos I did A LOT today. Faced so many black and white photographs, I think I am finally colour-blind.

Went to meet Sharifah after work and shopped for her prom dress. THERE IS NO PROM DRESS AT TAMPINES. I thought it'd be easy but maxi dresses are hard to find sey. Highlight of the day: We photobombed some tourists' photo. Hahaha!

Omg I swear I'm losing my blogging touch. After staring at the computer for like 7 hours, it's like you don't really wanna go home and look at another screen. Anyhoo, really shagged so GOODNIGHT.

Strepsils

2010-12-04T21:03:00.002+08:00

OMG I cannot believe that I am actually sick. I don't get sick easily unless it's the "kids" but other than that, I have a pretty strong immune system. BUT SHIT LA. How do I start work on Monday when I am like squeezing my nose for mucus and popping strepsils into my mouth every 10 mins?!

Ok so I did say yesterday that I was going to talk about the job. So basically, I am a

Government Management Trainee.

I KNOW RIGHT. SOUNDS SO CHEEM BUT ACTUALLY IT'S NOTHING LA. AHAHAHAHAHA!

Anyway. I'm assigned to work at National Library Board's HQ and it's pretty cool actually. Except for the journey because there are loads of warehouses nearby and I guess the guys there are kinda deprived and they will just honk at you and wink or just stare as you walk past them awkwardly so err yeah. I am counting on my skinny security guard for protection.

Right. So I initially thought that it was an admin thingy like carry books and cds and do some data entry, basically like what students do for CIP BUT OMG NO! My interviewer was like "Oh no! Your job is much more interesting than that!" Which is great because I thought I was seriously being underpaid if I'm doing admin work but considering the nature of the job, I think I'm fine with it. Furthermore, I don't actually have to worry about salaries until I graduate from uni (PLEASE AH PLEASE LET ME GET INTO A UNIVERSITY) and really have to start looking out for myself. Relatives were pretty against at first. They went like, "WHY DO YOU NEED A JOB? YOUR FATHER CAN STILL FEED YOU RIGHT?!" I'm like, chilllllllll....

Yeah my dad can get me everything I need but he can't get everything I WANT since he believes I don't need them and the novelty factor will wear off eventually, which is a bit shitty because I am an only child and I'm supposed to be pampered and all that but no....... But I'm ok with that since I don't really want to live up to everyone's mindset on "only child" children. OK SO ANYWAY.

I was late for my interview. HAHAHAHAHA!

I am such a terrible person I swear. I was late for my lectures, late for my tutorials, late for school almost everyday but the teachers are so nice they let me run to the assembly plaza and embarrass myself, late for social meetings.... I was even late for mother's delivery (I was born a week later than my scheduled date. LOL)

So the interview was quite alright. It was interesting, definitely. They made me take an English test macam oral examination and all the nightmares from my past Oral examinations started flooding my mind and I just stared at my interviewer for like 5 seconds until she went "Oh no. Let's not call it a test. Just a practise." My interviewer is so nice, really! She showed me the offices all that and then she showed me the PANTRY.

THE PANTRY IS AMAZINGGGGGGGGGG.

They have halal and non-halal fridges but who cares, I'm gonna whack both!

I really thought I wasn't going to get it since my English Olevel grade was so bad, they had to take my Malay grade as L1 :( But whatever la. That doesn't mean anything since my British GP tutor said I write well. This blog may have a lot of errors (it has A LOT, I just realised after reading my archives ahahaha) but I do alright for my eng examinations, if you don't count compre ewww I hate compre. Anyway, she's British so she knows best. Are you British? HUH? HUH?

Anyway.

I love that place, especially since it has that IKEA smell and god knows I love the smell of IKEA. And KiKi.K. And Burger King. And Body Shop.

So yeah. Basically I deal with a lot of photographs and digitisation. They already have an account on Flickr.

http://www.flickr.com/groups/snapsg-architecture/pool/tags/nlb/

Loads of Peranakan houses. I'm sure I'll be happy with that since my group and I did that for PW last year. (And got a B what the hell.. Heart pain, gonna go commit suicide now.)

My dad says I will get bored of it in two days but I AM GONNA STICK WITH THIS. Oh man, I really hope my job is really as fun as she said it would be.

Alrighty. I got to go now and take my meds. This damn fever better go away before Monday.

:/

2010-12-04T00:30:00.002+08:00

Copied it from someone's tumblr

Yes, I can show people beauty exists even with the headscarf on, that I am not oppressed & it is my choice. But my greater responsibility is to keep my Haya (shyness or modesty) intact, that if someone sees me they could identify me as a believer, that if someone looks at me I won’t be the cause of their desire or enticement, and that I don’t need to wear fancy figure-hugging clothes to prove to anyone that I am beautiful.

Been thinking A LOT lately about wearing the headscarf since there are just so many signs around me, practically begging me to cover up. Haiyoh. But I'm just not 100% ready yet.

Anyway, good news: I got a job. I shall blog about it tomorrow or something. Good night :)

Bebs

2010-12-01T23:48:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow morning, I am going to play with Baby Q and then clean up my History box and then go IKEA and then go visit Baby S. Why?

BECAUSE ALEVELS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

McMuffin

2010-12-01T01:11:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow, I am going to LP's McDonalds and eat my breakfast there and then I'm going to sit there for hours and people-watch. Why?

BECAUSE ALEVELS ARE OVER BABYYYYYYYYYYY!

Yeah it was over like a week ago but who cares. MCMUFFIN, YOU'RE MINE.

FRIZZ

2010-11-29T23:44:00.003+08:00

So post-Alevels have been FANTASTIC. So many things to do, it's like I'm never bored. I wish everyday is post-Alevels day up till I die of old age. That'll be great, thanks.

JB trip was kinda boring. I didn't really shop much since there was nothing acceptable. I swear shopkeepers are becoming smarter or something. They hike up prices on clothes that are absolutely GORGEOUS and the ugly ones go for RM5 or RM10. But that's ok, I got some extra ringgit with me and I'm gonna change them and go shopping with CM tomorrow! Omg, I really hope I can wake up early.

Being an aunt of two, I bought some clothes for my little nieces! HAHA I AM SO NICE I SWEAR. And omg, baby clothes are the BEST BEST BEST clothes to buy! Everything is so adorable and lovely, it's like you can't help it but want to buy everything you see. But Baby Q has too many clothes already while Baby S is too small to wear anything so didn't get much stuff for them except for a couple of dresses and overalls.

Anyway, today my mum ditched cooking so I had to feed myself. So I cooked Arrabiata pasta which turned out pretty well for the first-time despite what some people may think (HAMQEEH).

I GOT PICTURE.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA Ok, this may not be the nicest picture of the pasta but who cares about presentation if the food tastes good? In the end it all comes out the same way whaaaaat.

If Pastamania's a 10, that would be an eight. SERIOUSLY.

So then I head over to Qilah's place to bake some cupcakes for her friend's birthday and then it suddenly occurred to me.

I can cook and bake.

I can actually feed myself sia. I AM TOTALLY READY FOR MARRIAGE. COME, WHO WANNA MARRY ME? HAHAHAHA

I swear marriage is my back-up plan if Alevel results are less than satisfactory. I shall ask my dad to arrange my marriage after March or something. HAHA!

Alrighty, I gotta sleep early tonight. Big day tomorrow!

2010-11-26T23:11:00.009+08:00

So I got back from Ja's place to see the baby. Omg, when they were wrapping her and changing her diapers, I actually saw how tiny the baby is! I mean, she's tiny when she's all curled up but her legs/arms are pretty long. But still, tiniest baby I've ever seen in my life! Adorable, as always. So I asked her, "Was it painful?" And she said that the birthing wasn't painful but the contractions were, like 10times more painful than menstrual cramps. AWESOME. But oh well, almost every woman has to go through child birth at one point, so ALL THE BEST BITCHES.

Ok so I shall leave you guys with some pictures since I'll be off to JB for shopping! WHEET WHEET.

Meet my friend, Rachael!

BABY SARAH :)

2010-11-25T18:33:00.002+08:00

Just came back from the hospital. Jaja gave birth today! The baby's super small since she's almost 3 weeks early! And she's so adorable, JUST LOOK AT THAT POSE COME ON. WHICH NEWBORN BABY DOES THAT?

Btw, I took that photo off Facebook since Jaja uploaded it this morning. Facebook addict, I swear.

DONE :)

2010-11-23T21:53:00.002+08:00

Wah I really hate my BB's camera. Need to invest in a new one after my first paycheck!

Anyway, Alevels are over, like finally. But there's still that nagging feeling telling me to study some more. And omg, the anxiety is still there, I don't know why. Urgh, I hope it goes away because I really need to party my ass off till Results Day.

To the rest, PRESS ON!

I WANT.

2010-11-22T18:02:00.001+08:00

We should have more girls like this

2010-11-22T01:59:00.001+08:00

FML

2010-11-22T01:37:00.002+08:00

So I was studying Chem just now and it just occurred to me that instead of writing "nucleophilic addition" during my Chem Paper 2 last week, I freaking wrote "necrophiliac addition". OHMYGOD THOSE TWO ARE COMPLETELY DIFFERENT.

I hope the marker has a good sense of humour :/

1111st post :)

2010-11-20T22:18:00.002+08:00

So Dad sent me this email and usually his emails are pretty funny and all but the recent one that he sent me was super scary. So I'll just copy and paste what was in the email here:

Bill Gates recently gave a speech at a High School about 11 things they did not and will not learn in school. He talks about how feel-good, politically correct teachings created a generation of kids with no concept of reality and how this concept set them up for failure in the real world.

Rule 1: Life is not fair - get used to it!

Rule 2: The world doesn't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

Rule 3: You will NOT make $60,000 a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice-president with a car phone until you earn both.

Rule 4: If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss.

Rule 5: Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your Grandparents had a different word for burger flipping: they called it opportunity.

Rule 6: If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

Rule 7: Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you thought you were. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent's generation, try delousing the closet in your own room.

Rule 8: Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life HAS NOT. In some schools, they have abolished failing grades and they'll give you as MANY TIMES as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.

Rule 9: Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you FIND YOURSELF. Do that on your own time.

Rule 10: Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.

Rule 11: Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one.

If you agree, pass it on.
If you can read this -Thank a teacher!

________________________________

I realised that we are SO pampered in school, I'm afraid of ending my Alevels already. HAHAHA! I mean if you don't know what's going on in school, there are consultations, remedial, tuition teachers all that fancy smancy thingys but like once you enter the workforce, I get the sense that there's on no one but yourself. Omg I really hope I'm wrong because I thought the biggest struggle in life is the Alevels. THAT'S WHAT EVERYONE IS SAYING WHAT.

Anyway, 3 more days!

For JC kiddos,

2010-11-19T21:12:00.002+08:00

I swear my eyebags are getting so bad, I almost wanna punch every mirror I see. Oh well, 4 more days.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHAEL HO!

2010-11-17T22:38:00.002+08:00

HAH. Used this picture because I realised we need to go to WWW, as childish as it may sound, just to stare at hot lifeguards. Anyways, have a great birthday today since this is the big ONEEIGHT! I can honestly say that within the 6 birthdays that we've celebrated, you've grown into such a mature and gorgeous (my mum say one. HAHA) young woman and I can only wish for the best for your last two years in poly and your love life (forget NS men, we need to find sugardaddies like Mr.Tan aka Caravan tutor). So have an awesome birthday but not too awesome because remember the deal all of us had? We're going to (ehem) when the youngest turn 18 so don't you (ehem) on your birthday ah.WAIT FOR ME! HAHA OK HAPPY BIRTHDAY LA MINAH.

INCEPTIONNNNNNNNNNNN

THIS CHEERED ME UP

2010-11-16T11:04:00.002+08:00

Anyway, since I know my dear tutor will be browsing students' blogs for feedback, I shall just say that H1 Chem was not entirely bad la. There were some questions that had me thinking "wahh easy ah!" and then that stupid 15mark question just threw me off damn badly! AND OMG CHEM BONDING TOOK UP LIKE HALF OF THE PAPER? Aiyah, just get full marks for MCQ I guess.

.

2010-11-16T10:55:00.000+08:00

RETAKE ALEVELS LA.

OHHHHHMAAAAGAAAWWWWWWWWWDDDDDDDDDD CHEM IS TOMORROW!

2010-11-15T15:59:00.003+08:00

Reading Mardhiah's text got me thinking,

FUCK FUCK FUCK TOMORROW GOT CHEM FUCK WHY DID I HAVE TO PON ALL THOSE LESSONS AND SKIP MY TUTORIALS WHY DID I HAVE TO ACT LIKE SUCH A REBEL DURING CHEM WHY DID I STONE DURING CHEM WHY DIDNT I STUDY FOR ALL MY TESTS WHY WHY WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?

Panic Mode 101

my niece, btw, calms down to Lady Gaga

2010-11-13T21:25:00.002+08:00

RICKBOMBED

2010-11-13T21:16:00.002+08:00

And it's back to Chem. Gonna show everyone that you don't need perfect attendance to get an A for Chem. HAHA

My schedule for the next 10 days:

2010-11-12T16:14:00.003+08:00

CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS CHEM ECONS

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2010-11-08T19:46:00.002+08:00

I hate it when the more you try to forget something, the more it lingers in your mind.

I realised that History was not difficult actually. It's just that...it was the "OMG THIS IS THE FIRST PAPER. IF I SCREW THIS UP, IM GONNA TO BE A CLEANER FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE." feeling that screwed me up damn badly. Which is fucking annoying really because the questions were really do-able, if you spot them correctly. And as much as I try to get SEA History out of my head, I can't help but think that I would have done better if I had just calm the hell down.

Oh well, not going to burn my SEA notes this year for sure. Gonna wait till March HAHA

Bell curve, do your thing please.

ONE HOUR BEFORE MY FIRST PAPER

2010-11-08T12:21:00.001+08:00

SEA notes on the bed,
leftover pizza,
sharifah trying to iron her uniform,
bubble tea at the bedside table,
STRESS LEVEL 101.

I NEED FAITH AND CONFIDENCE :(

2010-11-06T04:13:00.001+08:00

2010-11-01T06:12:00.002+08:00

OMG MAYBE I SHOULD DO THIS FOR MY HISTORY ALEVEL REVISION. BTW, MY HISTORY EXAM.IN A WEEK.

2010-10-29T22:40:00.000+08:00

So.

2010-10-20T22:43:00.002+08:00

TKGS is being sued for the death of a former student who passed away THREE YEARS ago and her father's excuse was that "while his daughter was dying, the teachers were lounging at the hotel room." School's lawyer said that the teachers' were medically unfit to continue with the trek.

I'm just gonna say the same thing I texted Heeqmah.

I think that the school may been too complacent on safety because honestly, i think they were too dependent on the stupid medical check-ups. but, they did have the justifications to be "complacent" because the school has been sending 300 students each year to pulau ubin for OBS who passed their medical check-ups for god knows how long and nothing as serious as this had happened before. but overall i think the father's just trying to find someone to blame. and he didnt have anybody else but the school. this kind of "breathing problems" all that.. its just hard to find who's at fault here. from a religious point of view, its her time to go. but it you're talking about who's to be blame, dont think its the teachers. i mean, even if they passed their medical check-ups and take some safety courses or what..the malaysian team would have been far more experienced than them. they should have been better prepared. teachers are teachers. they are not gods who's gonna miraculously breathe life into her.

There.

2010-10-18T21:15:00.001+08:00

Please remind ourselves to plan another OBB after A'levels :)

WE NEED TO FIND THIS MAN.

2010-10-17T11:18:00.001+08:00

-OMGFacts

I gotsa teddy

2010-10-16T21:12:00.002+08:00

THIS IS NOT THE TIME TO HAVE A FEVER. SERIOUSLY.

For those of you who didn't get that, the picture of Justin is fake.

JUSTIN BIEBER FUNNY SIA

2010-10-10T04:52:00.001+08:00

GIRLS, THERE IS HOPE.

2010-10-08T21:35:00.002+08:00

Omg, I have to tell a true story about this ex-jc student. According to my friend, she was so stressed with the jc education that she quit school (which is one of the top 5 jcs in singapore. ehem). So she started chatting with this american dude online and they fell in love on the Internet. Apparently, they were so in love that the ang moh dude paid for her flight to USA to come and live with him and now, (according to their FB photos) their relationship is still going very strong and they are extremely happy. So girls,

IT IS VERY POSSIBLE TO FIND THAT RICH GUY AND MARRY HIM. ALEVELS IS NOT THE END, PRETTY PEOPLE. THERE'S ALWAYS GONNA BE THAT ONE RETARDED RICH AMERICAN DUDE WHO'S GONNA MARRY YOU.

kbye.

:/

2010-10-04T14:49:00.000+08:00

*

2010-09-30T19:12:00.003+08:00

All I can say is, Prelims really do bring out the worst in some people. Firstly, I am not your counsellor. If you get bad grades, then worry for a little while, emo for a few hours but do not spoil my day while doing that. Secondly, I do not want to hear about you complaining about your mediocre grades when clearly other people around you are getting much worse. There's a certain degree of sensitiveness that one should exercise. Thirdly, I IMPROVED IN ALL MY SUBJECTS (except Maths) and I am thankful for it, although I wished I had gotten higher for Chem because I really did try :(

But I'm not complaining. Small and steady steps. 40 more days. Let's go.

I MISS TKGS' SICKBAY :(

2010-09-27T17:31:00.002+08:00

Even though their mattresses were always smelly,soft and stained by girls with killer menses or girls who just needed to drool during their naps, it was one of the most awesome place in the school and I miss skipping lessons, waiting for my dad to fetch me while I cry on the bed cos my uterus felt like exploding, getting hot tea from Mdm Khoo which helped my cramps ALOT or visiting any sick or "sick" girls there just to say hey :(

Pardon

2010-09-24T22:54:00.005+08:00

OMG YAY I'm blogging! You know, I really think that I'm starting to lose my need to blog. Like, I haven't been blogging proper since the start of my prelims and sadly, I really didn't miss blogging. OHMYGAWD. I've been blogging since I was in secondary one, THIS CANNOT STOP!

Well, eventually this has to stop because this dude came to my school to scream (no,really he did) at us on the safety of the internet blahblahblah. So basically, I have to make my blog private sometime next year because a)schools check out their potential students through their blogs/FaceBook and b) employers check out their potential employees through their blogs/Facebook. WHICH IS INCREDIBLY SAD because I really wanna bitch about how much of an ass my future boss is. Omg, maybe I really need to go private...

Moving on. I have pictures (taken from people's facebooks) of my Hari Raya! But there's only 3 or 4 relevant ones and none of them have me inside because firstly, my outfit is HORRIBLE OMG. I had to untag the pictures of me in some pontianak outfit. And secondly, my hair was really bad because I blow-dried my hair with those curlers and my hair came out rough. Stupid curlers. Anyway, here are the 4 relevant pictures!

Omg, I took this picture not because I think my little cousins are cute or anything (BUT OMG THEY ARE. I JUST FEEL LIKE SQUEEZING ALL OF THEM EVEN THOUGH THEY CALL ME STUPID NAMES BUT SERIOUSLY, THEY'RE ADORBZ) but because I wanna show how generous I am since I PAID FOR THEIR ICE CREAM! WHEEE KARMA, DO YOUR THING FOR MY PRELIM RESULTS!

It was only $5 altogether but still. I.am.so.freaking.nice.

Here's a picture of Jaja and Zaki because I know they read my blog :) It feels weird though, looking at them. I don't see them as my cousins anymore but more like, my aunt and uncle. Partly because they're married and they're gonna be parents but I don't know. I feel like I should call them Cik Ja and Pakcik Zack the next time I see them. HAHAHA

SOFEA! Wah omg, you know when her mum was pregnant with her, she told us that she wanted to name her daughter Sophie and I was like "NOOOOOOOO I AM NAMING MY DAUGHTER SOPHIE!" and all the old people just stared at me like what the hell is wrong with this 13yr old girl. I'm still sad that she took my future daughter's name. But that's alright, I came up with a new name and I swear, I am not gonna share it with ANYONE because it seems like everytime I come up with a name, people just take it. (Stares at Jaja)

BABY!

She's one year old already! She's really small for her age. She wears "3-6months" clothes!

So I went to meet besties for dinner+*$ (LAWL, try and guess what is *$) AFTER SO LONG. For a moment I thought Hanna was avoiding us because she was too busy with her ACJC friends :( But after that night, everything feels right, you know? Old friends are the best, really.

OK PICTURES! Didn't have a camera so we used our pathetic BB cameras. Whatever man, BB> iPhone :)

Apparently, that pose was meant to make their faces smaller. HAHAHA

Anyway, went to SGH today for my appointment and she finally figured out what the problem was. She said I took too many painkillers which is crap because my menstrual cramps are tragic. Panadols don't ever work for me and the hot pack is just there to burn my skin, that's all. So, I either suffer from menstrual cramps or from kidney problems. What the hell man, it's a lose-lose situation! Mum's trying to clear out all of my painkillers but I managed to save a few dozens. Tehehehehe

OMG GMARKET HAS FINALLY DECIDED TO SEND MY CLOTHES! It was irritating at first. Because to pay for your item, you need to deposit money into GMarket's account which will then convert them into Gmoney (to be used to pay for your orders) after confirming the deposit. And they take like DAYS to do it so sometimes, sellers don't appreciate that fact and they get angry when they don't get your Gmoney in 3 days and then they not only cancel your order, but they TAKE AWAY YOUR CREDIT POINTS. I'm like WTH, IT'S NOT MY FAULT G IS SUPER SLOW.

But this time, G managed to convert my $0.70 (hahahahaha YES SEVENTY CENTS) into Gmoney within 2 days so they're sending my top this monday WHOOTS WHOOTS.

Ok, McDonald's is here! GOTTA EAT BYE.